| Can't believe things happened to me this way!
Went for the 1st interview on Wed...I was overqualified as the job thingy is like OSIM promoter. Why can't they just tell me that over the phone? I was asking them what's the job about and they said it was too hard to be explained on the phone. So...I went. Proven that I've wasted my time and effort. Anyway...continue my job scouting straight away that evening. Called another office. Can't decide the interview time for the next day as I have to rely on my brothers or daddy to fetch me there. So...the next morning, made a call there again to confirm that I'm going later. Thought that the offices were in KLCC and PJ near LRT, these were stated next to the phone number. But...they gave me an address which is situated in Jalan Ipoh, KL. Anyway, I went there. The interview was OK, short & simple but I've waited for quite sometime as there were a number of people. Came home an hour after I went out of the house. Waited for the call anxiously. Then...they called, told me that the 2nd interview and training session will be held the next morning at 8.45am which is today! I was really happy!
Ben (my elder bro) fetched me there. On the journey there. got a call from them reminding me about the appointment. Got there, filled in an abstract test which scare me as it seems that it's so "professional". Then waited for about half an hour. There were 6 of us. 2 indian girls, me & this Chinese girl, one malay boy n one malay girl. Then...we were called one by one, separately to meet with our trainer in the inner part of the office which is not seenable in the place we were waiting. I was being introduced to the trainer named Mohan and then I was brought to the back of the office and was introduced the type of advertising alliance that they have, like Domino, Digi, Pizza Hut (there's lots of it but I don't remember). After that...was brought to the backpath of the office to Mohan's car as he says we have an assignment today in Rawang, so we'll travel there now. Everything just happen in a daze. So...I was thinking we should be going there to meet up with some clients or what!
I was pretty paranoid in the car thinking could he be fetching me anywhere and do something to me? but there was this Malay girl, his colleague in the car as well. But come to think of it, she might be his accomplice as well and they might do something to me. Was telling myself that everything should be alright. Along the journey, my trainer sounds very professional to me, asking me questions and telling me things. Anyway...we reached Rawang and nothing happened. We then went for breakfast, it was 10.30am. They mentioned about going to schools which made me wonder why school? So...we went after the breakfast. Then only did I know what is this job about! Guess what! When you eat at stall or restaurant, those salesperson which wears smartly approached you to sell you some stuff...does it come to your mind what I'm describing here? That's what it's about. Was thinking, it's not so bad after all coz we're doing this in school but guess what! After the schools, during lunch hour, 1-2pm, we headed to shoplots, to restaurant approaching people that were having their lunch. I was thinking "am I out of my mind?" "What if I saw my daddy's friend? He's so gonna kill me!". I was telling myself everything's gonna be alright. And I managed to go through this whole day till 6pm. Thanks to Sha, the malay girl working with my trainer. Reached office about 6+pm. Then saw all the people that came with me for interview this morning. They all seems to be leaving in a hurry but me...my trainer asked me to fill in some test questions. Hallo! Why am I filling in that? As if I'm going to work there. Don't ask me why for all the things I've did this whole day! I don't know! I really don't know! I feel so stupid but I've managed to survive this whole day, I am proud ok! Left at about 6.30pm. No one is free to fetch me. Not my dad, not my brothers. Called may may, shouted all my anger which was supressed the whole day, out to her. Missed the bus but glad that I was on the phone with her! Thanks dearie!
Took a bus. Stop in Sungai Mas, called my aunt. Waited forever before she comes. Can't resist no more. Was breathing deep in at the bus stop. Tried and tried and tried but still...my tears drop one by one. She's not here yet. I so feel like walking home. Called her, told her not to come but she told me she's coming. Try to calm myself down but I can't. So...I stand up and leave the bus stop and walked away. At last, she came. Talked to her and I started crying non-stop. I can't believe that I've actually supressing this the whole day! Came home, found it hard to talk to my mom as I want to stop crying. So...I asked my aunt to come down and talk to her. I walked in but my mom tried to stop me, asking me if I was cheated or what. But I dismissed her and walk straight to the bathroom as that was all I needed after a whole day long under the sun most of the time and with all the sweats that made my whole body feels so sticky. Sobbing in the bathroom but feel better. Took a nice shower.
I was thinking, am I taking things for granted? I have been so lucky my whole life! Meeting the right person for things instantly, getting the right job instantly, everything were easy for me. They just come or either I went to find, and that was it, the right one straight away. I was thinking...have I taken all the good luck or blessings that happened to my past for granted? I thought, this job was the one too when I went for the 1st interview but I was wrong, very wrong indeed!
But all I wanted is just a job...a good job for my future and some income to sustain myself as I don't want to take out my hands and take money from my parents anymore! Is it too much for me to ask? I'm just trying to be a good daughter, wanting to earn some income to support myself and not rely on my parents and brothers anymore! Am I too hurry in chasing all these? Was I wrong? Too wrong maybe? I don't know, I just don't know.Sometimes I just wonder. Would it be better if I just sit at home everyday? I don't know, I just don't know! Just hope that my daddy would hire me but he will not. Just don't know what he's thinking!
This is truly a lesson for me to learn from in this day of my life! But...glad that I've got to know Sha.
This Sunday is "Kuan Yin" festival. Heard from my mom that we'll be going to the temple. How am I going to face it? I don't know, I just don't know! I just feel so weak now. Hoping that tomorrow will be a better day for me! |
